Dream #2

I had another dream about Tim last night. This time he was living in a small house in my backyard and I would take meals to him and talk with him. Matt knew about him living there and didn't seem to be bothered by it. How strange!

This morning I went skiing all by myself while Matt stayed with Sam for 3 hours. I listened to music as I ran the slopes and had a very nice time. As I was leaving there were to people getting ready to head up to the hill, bent over fastening ski boots. My heart skipped a beat as I thought the man in the couple was Tim! Of course, it wasn't, but for a few moments I sure thought it was. I have had "Tim sightings" over the years and one in particular where I still it could have been him. I never approached him though and I guess I may never find out where he is or what he is doing. It makes me a little sad. I think he is the only person from my past that I care to know about and don't.

Missing the History

Last night I had a very powerful dream about my first real love, Tim. In this dream we ran into each other on the street in Bozeman, MT (where we lived together and left each other). It was so wonderful to see him. We had coffee and talked and it was a really warm conversation. Today I really miss him. I often wonder what happened to him and where he is; if he has a family now, etc. Dreams are so powerful to me and this one won't leave.

As I sat in the sun in our living folding laundry this afternoon I started thinking about why I miss Tim . I then realized that I not only miss Tim, but I miss Kristy, Julie, Becky, Lisa, Dave, Tara, Laura, Jane, Raven, Jill, Andrea, Megan, Ann, Corey, Laura B., my mom and dad....so many people that I share histories with. I miss the history. I miss talkng about our lives together and laughing. I miss having people in my life, day to day, that know me to my core because of our history together.

Madonna

One of my Christmas gifts from Matt was an Mp.3 player so I can listen to my favorite music while I work out or while Sam is sleeping and not disturb him. So tonight i have been downloading music and I stumbled across my "Immaculate Collection" CD and forgot how much I enjoy Madonna's music from the 80's and 90's! If you don't have it you should get it and if you do have it put it in and dance!