Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Ho-hum-drum

I am not sure if it is the dreary weather. Or that the holidays are over and I am not going to see anyone in our family again soon. Or that everyday that passes is one closer to the one-year anniversary of my mom's death....but I just feel ho-hum-drum.

The snow melted and we've been having unseasonably warm weather in the upper 50's. Everything looks so mucky and yucky and the leaves are wet and stuck to everything. There are copious amounts of mud everywhere.

We're slowly getting back into the swing of things and at least we have our usual play groups and preschool meetings this week to keep us busy.

My moon returned last month and the hormonal changes have been very significant. 

Blah. Just blah.

I am trying to see the good in things. I am not crying all the time. I just can't seem to feel "up". Perhaps it will change as we gain ownership of our house on the 22nd and I have a new project to take on, new spaces to explore.
I can only hope.

3 comments:

karen said...

lunaluSending lots of love your way...I know how it is to feel that way, and anniversaries of loss are so very hard...especially of such a huge loss. You are wise to acknowledge what is happening with you, and to take notice of all the potential factors. Hormonal changes are such a challenge to be okay with. XOXOX

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you sista!
xoxoxo

Anonymous said...

((hugs)) for your loss. I will be thinking of you.

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